Which behavior do you turn to when life is challenging or when there is something to “figure out?”

I have a pattern – that when I am aware and “in the practice” I have interrupted – but when life throws me a curveball I fall back into quite easily.

It’s in these times that I am so far outside of myself, so disconnected to who I am as a powerful person to influence what I am experiencing, that I grasp for whatever I can to ease the difficulty.

I call the pattern I fall into during these times investigation mode. I research and take scrupulous notes to find the exact right answer to fix the problem. I drain my energy looking for the one thing – the silver bullet – that will cure the challenge. I’m talking twenty browser tabs open, four different books started and at least three calls in to three different people asking for their expertise.

Funny enough even after gathering all of the information I remain conflicted and unsure about the way out of the problem…the way out of the suffering.

So much energy is expended and top of the challenge draining me, the endless searching drains me even more.

Sometimes there is a part of me that is truly curious about all of the options, thoughts and things available to me as a human wanting to learn and grow so I consider just being inquisitive.

When I remind myself of “the practice” and use all of the tools available to me to come back to myself…to ground in the knowing that I am a powerful human and if I get quiet enough and tune in…my intuition will show me the way.

The path of least resistance to experiencing my world in a better way unfolds before me. I listen and I know exactly what to do…what to say…and a calm overtakes the churning to cure the challenge.

I’ve been in investigation mode folks and I have learned a great many things…some of them even useful…some of them expanded my thoughts…but most of them left me confused about which way to move forward.

And then I was reminded of my superpower. My superpower of becoming quiet and tuning in to my inner knowing and the answers that I already have within me that flow from my Inner Truth.

My experience of the difficulty is less stressful, the people around me feel supported and the challenge seems to balance itself out…even when it’s still there. And all because I remembered to align first with myself and my Inner Truth of love, connection and personal energy before branching out and becoming curious about what else might support me.

It takes deliberate practice – and sometimes a gentle reminder – for me to remember that intuitiveness and inquisitiveness serve me and investigation doesn’t so I want to be sure to connect and align before I connect to the internet and search.